The Flow We Cannot Chase: Money, Worth, and the Mother Within

This week, I’ve been sitting with a truth that reaches far beneath the surface: the desire to make money—when born from fear, scarcity, or inherited wounds—often repels the very flow we seek.

And as I trace this thread, I see it running straight through the fabric of my mother wound.

From my earliest years, I absorbed her energy around provision, worth, and survival. Money was never just numbers, it carried tension, fear, unspoken pressure. Without words being spoken, I learned that love and safety were tied to performance, that value had to be earned, and that scarcity was a constant. That imprint wove itself into my energetic blueprint, shaping how I approach work, creativity, and abundance.

For years, I chased money desperately, thinking it would fill the gap, prove my worth, or provide freedom. But the harder I chased, the further it slipped. Energetically, my desire was heavy with tension, carrying the story of lack I inherited. Flow cannot enter contracted energy. Alignment, not striving, is what opens the door.

Healing this wound is intimate, layered, and ongoing.

It begins with awareness: noticing how scarcity, fear, or pressure shows up in your body, your choices, your inner dialogue. It deepens when we acknowledge the maternal and ancestral patterns we carry, offering compassion to both the self and the mother who, in her own way, did the best she could with the tools she had.

The work is subtle but profound. It is the quiet practice of separating worth from earning. It is noticing when energy contracts in fear or stretches in desperation. It is forgiving the parts of ourselves that internalized scarcity as survival, and forgiving the mother who unknowingly passed it on. It is learning to operate from resonance rather than effort, from alignment rather than grasping.

In this space, abundance begins to feel different. It is no longer a target, a prize, or a measurement of approval. It is a reflection of energetic harmony—of a healed and aligned self, capable of receiving freely, capable of holding worth without earning it, capable of giving and creating without contraction.

A earth mandala made by Flower, an offering to the Great Mother as a thanks for all of the abundance she provides.

Reflection and Practice:

1. Mirror Work for Worth

   Look into your own eyes and say: "I am enough. I am whole. My worth is not dependent on earning or doing." Breathe into the tension where your body resists.

2. Tracing the Lineage of Scarcity

   Journal or meditate on the financial patterns inherited from your maternal line. Notice what you’ve carried unconsciously, and release the stories that no longer serve you.

3. Energetic Release Rituals

   Light a candle or hold a small object as you speak to yourself and your mother: "I release the fear and scarcity passed to me. I reclaim my freedom and alignment." Let the energy move through your body.

4. Flow Before Financial Action

   Before decisions, check in: are you contracting in fear or striving for approval? Pause. Breathe. Align with purpose, creativity, and resonance.

5. Receiving as Practice

   Practice receiving—gifts, opportunities, kindness—without needing to earn them. Notice how your body responds. Receiving retrains your system to trust abundance.

   
   

The mother wound does not vanish overnight. Some days, scarcity whispers its old stories, and the familiar tightness rises. Yet each time we notice, release, and realign, we reclaim a fragment of freedom. In that space, life—and money—flows naturally, without grasping, without desperation.

Abundance is not about striving. It is about resonance. It is about stepping fully into worth, releasing inherited fear, and aligning with the energy of creation.

It begins with healing the wound that taught us scarcity before we even understood its weight.

And finally, in the quiet moments, when the energy softens and breath deepens, we may notice: abundance is not something we chase—it is something we are. We are the flow, the alignment, the fertile ground from which everything blooms.

May You Flow and Bloom,

xoxo Flower